I can't believe I actually made the appointment.
It just seemed like everything was going in the right direction, as far as finances and suprising support from my family.

I guess they could  hear the dissapointment in my voice when i would talk about my body? =/

I'm so scared, I just wish I could be on the other side of it.

Going under scares me. Having something go wrong in surgery, and the pain!

I want to believe my pain tolerance is high, but I've never had a major surgery, just Lasik and minor pain from that. I wish they could just keep you under for the first week! lol.

I know these are normal feelings, but i can't help but feel selfish for doing this. It kills me to think if anything happened to me that my girls would suffer for that. =/.

I guess these are the ups and downs i hear people talk about before their surgery. Today is deffinately a worry day. Hopefully tomorrow will be an excited day. =).